Sink Into Life

Inspiration, Mantra

I have this new mental trick that I like to call Sink Into Life.

Having a mantra is important to me and my stability. There is no particular process I use in picking my mantra other than stating what I am feeling and what I want to accomplish.

This week my mantra is to Sink Into Life.

It came about because the weather is dreary and rainy and I am super exhausted. It’s like I can’t rest enough or catch up on good sleep. I have a marriage, house, full-time job, and 2 kids to raise so regardless of how I feel, I must continue.

And also, the sun rises no matter what, so I thought:

Why not just sink into this day, regardless?

By sink in, I mean:

  • Being OK with being tired
  • Embracing the rain
  • Expressing that I am tired, and trying my best without apology
  • No guilt about my feelings

While this sounds simple, it is actually pretty difficult for me. Usually, I will fight and fight and push and push and get super frustrated at my circumstance. Then, that will cause me to be miserable. When miserable, my anxiety spikes because I want soooo bad for energy to come my way. Then, I’m mad because it’s not there.

Next thing I know, I’m even more tired and the day is ruined.

So, instead of fighting, I am simply sinking into the day. I dressed comfy. I didn’t spend a lot of time on my hair because it’s raining outside. I’m not going to over-do it at work – I am just going to do what needs to be done and that’s all. I’m watching the leaves turn outside while drinking coffee and writing here about my experience. In a few moments, I am going to feed my Spirit and read my Bible. I’m OK with not feeling inspired today. I’m totally cool with just enjoying the day and not fighting it. I’m OK will being tired because there is not much else I can do about it.

So, I’m sinking into it. No apologies for what is.

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Ask + Believe + Receive

Law of Attraction, Spirituality

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Jesus and Law of Attraction.

Those two ideas in one sentence is enough to have the congregation sweating, huh?

Well.

I don’t believe I am going to Hell thankyouverymuch.

I do believe that there is something to this Law of Attraction and Jesus that I have been pouring some serious studying, meditating, praying, and opening my heart to.

I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you’ve received it, it will be yours. Mark 11:24 Holy Bible

It’s true. I know it is.

Blossom

Inspiration

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Mind blown.

It’s incredible to realize the most profound thing I have seen today is about a bee.

My mind is open and my heart is slowly swelling. It’s incredibly freeing to know that all this chasing and dreaming and trying to control the outside energetic elements is a total drag and waste.

I must blossom.

And when I do:

The bee will come.

Giving Damns

Inspiration

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The beauty of not-giving-a-damn is just that:

Not-giving-a-damn.

Which, as hard as I have tried to do so many things, and be the best at everything, not-giving-a-damn is a truly, psychedelic experience.

My brain tells me I have to do this, I must achieve this, I HAVE to be super woman.

My heart tells me to just be. My heart says that the Universe and Heavens will take care of me and to just let it.

Love and compassion will flow and be accepted, but the external circumstances that I try to control aren’t even mine to control in the first place.

Making the right choice, enjoying this moment, and realizing that I am enough just as I am, right in this instant is immensely simple, satisfying, and freeing. Getting to this point has been living hell, but very much part of the process to getting here in the first place.

I certainly wouldn’t describe this as Enlightenment, but it is a very different place than I have ever ventured before. I’m excited about it and really uncomfortable at the same time.

One thing I know to be true:

If you are excited and uncomfortable, you should probably go for it or embrace it anyway.

So, I don’t give a damn. That’s my embracing phrase for the day.

Heart.

Balance, Clarity, Desire, Heart, Inspiration, Intution

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Our hearts are imprisoned for just one reason: The only language they can speak is truth. Unlike the mind, which can be persuaded to accept the most bizarre ideas (“Look, it’s the Hale-Bopp comet! Time to kill yourself!), your heart tells it like it is, without bothering to be tactful or socially appropriate. Free hearts rock boats, break rules, do things that disrupt the system—whether that system is a dysfunctional family, a bloated bureaucracy, or the whole wide world. –Martha Beck

I’ve come to realize one of the main reasons for my anxiety is the conflict between my mind and heart.

I never knew until recently the true difference in the two life energy sources, I just accepted the fact that my mind was telling me what my heart was saying.

There is a shift now where I am listening to my heart more and more and ignoring my mind.

My brain is composed of past hurts, failures, society expectations, negative thoughts, memories: although there is a ton of positive stuff, too.

It’s simply time to hear my heart out first and tune out the ever rampant not-so-truthful brain.

Unfortunately, my heart is quiet. I’m ready to listen but it is silenced. That is because I have imprisoned my heart for so long. I’ve told it to hush! I’ve tried to rationalize against my heart.

I’m opening up the communication slowly and will listen to every tiny whisper.

Stubborn Gladness

Inspiration

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Stubborn Gladness.

That has a little bit of confused-umph to it doesn’t it?

I want stubborn gladness, and I want it bad. On a small level, stubborn gladness is simple: don’t take life too seriously. it’s being glad in the midst of trouble in life.

We all have troubles and we all have the opportunity to be glad, if we choose to harness and cultivate it.

Each passing day, I can feel that gladness, hope, joy, faith, and clarity surfacing.

Those are the feelings that have been squelched by my busyness and what I like to call “digging out of a ditch” for so long.

I grabbed a shovel and started digging at the beginning of this year.

I can smell the air. I can see some light. And I’m still digging. Still learning. Still discovering myself again.

Willing to listen. Willing to stop. Willing to change.

Deep stuff. Important stuff.

This is what I am doing and will continue to do.

Rise

Desires, Inspiration, Simplicity

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Why decide to rise?

Not for the reasons you might think.

In fact, these are the reasons that will make you sick & tired:

Do not rise out of obligation

Do not rise because of feared consequences.

Do not rise because you think being tough makes you smarter (it doesn’t).

-The Desire Map

Now that we got the reasons not to rise out of the way, let’s get on with the good stuff.

I have been a go-getter, a do-or-die kind of gal. Quitting is for losers. If you’re not first your last thinker. A wear myself into the ground swatting and fighting for all the wrong reasons.

Good intentions at the core, but some serious exhaustion with nothing to show as the result.

Years and years of this, y’all.

I’m not nearly afraid of quitting anymore. While I absolutely adore responsibility and doing what you say you are going to do (if it is serving you well), the things that don’t serve can fug off!

My new rise and shift is for the great life. It’s for ebb and flow. It’s for latching on to what’s speaking from my Soul and allowing a whole lot of grace to cover the process.

It’s true what is said about following your heart and desires above all. Because not every thought you have is the truth – but the heart is true all the time.

Right now I desire to be free and open. Not constrained. I need a little whim and not-so-seriousness in the every day.

I am wild and primal at heart afterall: with a body and mind that is God-Given for survival on this earth. My mind and heart is craving freedom from reliance to do what I need to do. I can do this. I was born to, actually.

I crave endlessly the wiggle room and peace of ME! Of me being able to take care of myself.

I want joy, resilience, and rest. I want sunrise without dread.

And friends, that’s what I will have because I have everything to gain from what my Soul is telling me.

will be listening this time. Because. My Soul is God and people, that’s where I want to go and what I want to touch in every moment of every day.

The Shift to Desired, Gut, Intuitive Living

Desires, Intuition, The Shift

Meditation and self-reflection has really started a burning desire in my gut. For so long I have lived reactive and victimized by the happenings around me. My thoughts swirl in my head constantly saying things like

Why am I doing this every, single day? I want to be doing something else worthwhile.

Why is this bothering me so badly?

Why has all my energy been used to fight things that don’t matter.

Why am I not following my heart and gut?

The answers that I am getting in response is that:

I have been sitting back, not rocking the boat, afraid that I can’t do the things I want on my own, fear of failure, fear of the future, and fear of what others will think about my decisions.

There is also a recurring theme in my mind saying

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

But deeeep down, I know that I will figure it out.

and most of all:

I AM READY TO ROCK THE BOAT.

I intend to do this by following my core desired feelings. This comes beautifully from The Desire Map sermons. It is probably the most simple thing I have ever heard, but I have for so long squelched my desires and been very self-restrictive that I can no longer express my desires.

This is all about to change.

I am going to shift. I am no longer going to live reactive.

I will be trusting my gut, my heart, and my intuition. I want to say goodbye to the quiet, obedient me and say hello to the new, authentic me. At any cost.

Because what I really, truly desire to feel is:

  1. Freedom
  2. Joy
  3. Love
  4. Secure
  5. Passion

And for me to live the way I want to feel, I must do and act in harmony with those top 5 desired feelings.

I know that I can’t wake up tomorrow and all the sudden everything I want be right in front of me, because truthfully what I envision is very, drastically different from my life today.

My shift will include doing less of what I am doing now and then actually living and doing more of what I want to do.

So what about you? Do you live based on the way you want to feel or do you live reactively like I have been doing for so long doing things that you really don’t want to do?

Harmony

Happiness, Inspiration

I read a quote somewhere recently that said something like:

Happiness is when what you do and say align in harmony with your thoughts.

I couldn’t agree more. For so long I was searching for accomplishments, goals, stuff, the American Dream. I thought all of these things (even in moderation) would make me happy.

The truth is, it doesn’t. I am truly happiest when I am balanced and in harmony with my heart, soul, and intuition.

That is my Nirvana.

One Letter is Changing my Life

Inspiration, Passion, Positive Thinking

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When you start working inside-out, some really crazy shizz starts to surface. I’m talking: crazy.

That’s important because getting into the routine of checking into your desires and feelings and why-you-do-what-you-do is legit.

For so long, I ignored my heart and soul. I went with the I should’s instead of the I must’s. Not with ill intention of course, it’s just that it’s easy to push our true desires aside at some point when we ‘grow up.’

But, in reality we don’t have to.

In realizing that my happiness is not attached to goals, end results, or what other people think of me, I came up with a simple solution that seems so simple that it’s easy to forget about. Once it becomes habit after some practice – chasing happiness and desires doesn’t seem so hard after all.

Change one letter and you have a new word. THAT word makes a major difference in how bad-ass you are. 

Instead of saying:

I will be happy W hen…

You say:

I will be happy, T hen..

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You can use this exercise in pretty much any situation and test how the results make you feel.

a) I will be happy when I get a new job

b) I will be happy, then go after that new job

a) I will be happy when I get out of debt

b) I will be happy, then have the energy to create an awesome debt-tackling plan

a) I will be happy when my husband validates me

b) I will be happy, then ‘do me’ because I don’t need my husband’s validation

a) I will be happy when I lose weight

b) I will be happy, then put my shoes on and go for a run on this gorgeous day

See?

It’s easy! Now you try it.